Quit Smoking

In the morning when my mom came inside my room, she told me that an acquaintance has been diagnosed with lung cancer. Since she has seen her father suffer, she was visibly shaken and was recalling how terrible it if for the patient as well as the family when a person suffers from cancer.

Whenever I hear cancer, I picture in my maternal grandfather, my Daddyji, he suffered with lung cancer, fought like a soldier but succumbed to death. He had quit smoking long ago, but his lungs were damage with the tobacco tart that he had smoked before quitting... He had respiratory problems and every now and then he had to be rushed to ICU. With a survival rate of zero percent, Lung cancer or small cell carcinoma grows to third or fourth stage within 15 days.  By the time it is diagnosed, a patient is already in critical stage.

I recall how I wished that the doctors tell us that they diagnosed it wrong, and tried to convey to everyone that a medical professional can go wrong. Till the end, I did not feel that he will ever leave us, even when he was on ventilator. Even when we had to rush as the doctors said that he is left with 30 min of life. I am proud that he fought... Smiled through the oxygen mask whenever I met him in the ICU, he blinked whenever I spoke to him, holding his hand and telling him to get well soon.

I would confess that I was also about to give into the temptation of smoking, but I did not. And I thank god for that... I reiterate this today, I reiterate this as you read it, and I reiterate it every time someone Quits to smoke. Cancer knows no love, no boundary, no colour, no caste, no creed... Lets fight it, lets start with boycotting things that lead the cancer to grow.

Author's Note: Quit Smoking, nothing is worthy to take away a part of your life.. And its not cool, its doesn't make one a better artist, it cannot bring out the creativity in you, it doesn't take away your stress, and the list goes on....... whatever reason you have, it doesn't help at all..


PS: Daddyji, I love you...   I am glad I was always able to make up to convey this to you!
You are (I still believe that you are around us) the best, And I miss you..
Wherever you are, I wish lots of happiness, health and smiles for you... 

Happy New Year 2012

A very Happy New Year pals.. I don't subscribe to the thought that the world will end in 2012, go ahead and make as many plans as possible...

You all make me feel great... Life is just great and I need to tell a lot to you... So hopefully I will be in full spirits to jot down my thoughts and achievements!

This year's resolution falls in line with Oscar Wilde's quotation ..

“To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance.”

As this year has begun on a very special note, I need to talk something serious with you.. I need to talk to you about love, not just love, its about Self Love! 

When does one stop loving thyself? It might be a bad life, a situation where one ends up being a soft target of bullies, or may be a breakup..

One needs to realise that its a phase where people around are turning you down. And once you are over it, you will feel something like what your drawing teacher did to all those bullies, who made fun of your creative self, for not scoring well in the drawing classes. Well creativity is in-borne, no one can teach you that.. similarly..
..... ehemmm I seem to be drifting away from the topic...

 And still you need to know that there is someone who loves you unconditionally.. and that's you, yourself!

It's about Self Love.. Why do we need a lot of people around to celebrate? Why do we have to throw a lavish party post appraisals? And how much of our 'thyselves' is being pampered for that achievement?

As I sit today in the midst of something that is shaping up to be beautiful, I reckon that my life has been an experience.. It has enabled me to lift subtle hints that are thrown towards me.. Hints which indicate what will work and what needs to be kicked-off, what should be celebrated and what ought to be refrained from!

It tells me that something is going in the right direction, and I don't have any doubts about it. I am sure that it will work! Its like, one doesn't find self in the midst of introspection, something is saying that whatever happens will be for the best.

Let this year, be an year of newer achievements and more reasons to celebrate.. 

Just say what you feel is to be said

Just do what you feel is to be done

Because this is just a phase and it shall pass

And you need all the reasons to celebrate it

And you need all the reasons to know that you are being loved

And you need all the reasons to know that you are special

What matters in life is not the relationships we share with people around us, but the relationship we share with ourselves. How well one is treated completely depends upon how much of you is open to vulnerability. Those who test that waters by repeatedly hitting that spot should be kicked out of your life...

Author's Note: So next time you have a reason to celebrate, don't call over friends, just hop into for a Gol-Gappa treat at Bengali market!  I don't know what should I suggest to those who are not in Delhi!

P.S: I recently lost my wisdom tooth,

and the story of the misery, fights and rights will  soon come online  :)

Seems to be....

and it seems to be a river bed

and we two seem to be in love...

and we seem to be talking

and the talks seem to never end....

and the sun seems to have already went to sleep behind the endless green hallows

and the sun seems to have been listening to us all this while

and the birds seem to have gone to sleep in their dens quite a while ago...

and the river is still awake with the waters flowing peacefully

and each part of the water in the river is paying homage to words that live for a very brief moment

and the words leaving us seem to be giving way to the ones who are stocked inside us...

and a boat seem to be resting on the moving waters

and there seem to be a night rider sitting on the throttle

and the rider seems to wait for his prey unfazed with our presence

and it seems the rider knows that we are practicing the newly learnt language of love, the language, which needs no words

and the moon seem to be seeping through the dark

and it seems to be standing on our head asserting his presence

and the moon seems to be shining making it too hard for us not to notice him...

and he seems to tell us that he will be our accomplice through the night

and the stars seem to twinkle in consent....

and the vampires of the night seem to be out for hunt

and I seem to be fearless as I am with you...

and we seem to still have a long way to go

and we still have long endless talks ....

Author's Note: This is what all it seems, do not know how much of this will be true

Facebook Stalkers and Me

I never entertain facebook friend requests by strangers.. But there is no dearth of facebook stalkers and those people who repeatedly send you friend requests despite your declining it... On that note, I just realized that I have some fodder for my blog, leaving you here to read the messages that reach on "Facebook - Message - Other" link (these messages are sent by people who are out of your network, i.e. you don't have any mutual friend)..

I respect everyone's individuality so don't ask for their identity.. But you will get to read my reactions to these messages....

Message: Hey hi, I just gone through ur pics and profile and liked it very much, its nice. Can v b frends, if u dnt mind? Pls reply.

Reaction: Shine wonders if this is a marriage proposal? Even if it had been one, Shine would have declined it  :-/... AND YES I DO MIND

Message: nice profile..can i knw u and be ur frnd..myself a CA by proff and like making frnds

Reaction: Whoaaaa I just learnt that making friends is a trait that is comparable to being a CA by profession

Message: hello shine nice pic.. well i am neeraj working with MNC as analyst at gurgaon...like travelling, listening to music so can v b frnd

Reaction: What is he trying to tell me? Is he saying that since he likes travelling and listening to music, I should be his friend.... 

Message: hi, ur very gorgeous,, cn v b frnz ? 97118*****79.. plz reply karna

Reaction: I wish I could bring to your notice that all buggers who call on my mobile get their number circulated amongst gangsters of Ramjas College.. These gangsters have many sim cards, and they has a passion for competing with these buggers, as to who bugs the best.... Anyways I am yet to decide on what to do with those who leave their numbers in my facebook inbox... 

Message: do looks nice. a natural tinge of subtle beauty in there..

Reaction: Nice... This is a compliment, though I see grammatical error

Message: How r u doing mate ? amazing smile u have got ... sum1 will be really lucky to see it for rest of his life .... keep it up.. You must b the cutest frnd suggestion FB ever gave me are you working with google 2 ?

Reaction: Blush Blush....

Message: hi , pl add me as ur frnd. i saw ur pic, very beautiful u r. can we be good frnds. i m B.Tech.+M.Tech. working as engineer in ghaziabad. u can contact me at 081***14355. if u dont mind. waiting 4 sweet reply. bye.

Reaction: This one seems to be stalking me on facebook 

Author's Note: Readers are welcome to post their reactions...

PS: I have written a few incomplete posts, shall post them soon.. Love you all, but my blog the most :)

Atheist!

I don't believe in thee almighty
They pray and claim to be his followers
I believe in more than thee


They see power in an idol
I see power in me
I don't say I am supreme
Its just I don't believe in the almighty


They feel they follow five times a day ritual 
And they have done their duty
I feel they did some twisting and turning
And just got up in the wee


I see they taking processions
Decorate their deity
I see it as a fest
A colourful spree


I don't believe in god! 
I am wrong, I don't care  if you tell me
I do not subscribe your silent ways to party
I find it baseless and a reason worth to flee!


P.S.: No offense to the larger non-atheists' community! Hate mails and comments can make way for my inbox :)

Blasts in Mumbai... banking on numbers and spirits!

I do not claim this as a solution, infact I don't really have a solution to it.... All we need are open eyes, ears, senses................. And we shall fight terror!

- शाइन कपूर

They call an urgent meeting and start talking about their hush hush analysis, buck passing and how will they share intelligence that a terror attack will not happen again.. The death count is another consideration which highlights the severity of such meetings.. 

How do they mellow down  the effect.. bring in the dead and injured data, news channels will analyse that this attack was less severe from the earlier one! Thats not it.. Lets treat each attack similar, no matter how harsh or naive it went on the mankind... 

Coz if we will go by numbers, the blasts carried in Mumbai on July the 13th can be overlooked by our polite home minister. I feel that the fact that blasts happened should be a reason enough for us to stand up and ask for an extended safety shield for each on of us. 

I question how can P Chidambram dare say that all Indian cities are vulnerable.... Why could he not add that we will do away with this vulnerability?

Rahul Gadhi said 1% terrorism is acceptable.... Why? Are those 1% not important vote base for them? Infact if I look at India, the people who die during terror attack do not even constitute 1% of population.. So shall we expect more severe attack to substantiate Mr Gandhi's statement?

I do not support killing Kasab.... I never felt pride when Osama Bin Laden was captured and allegedly killed and thrown in the sea, I somehow feel that he is alive in the custody of the Americans. I would also go out of context with Saddam's trail by the US court.. I just did not like it! 

  

I AM AS MUCH DISAPPOINTED AS YOU ALL ARE, I AM AS MUCH HEART BROKEN AS YOU ARE, I ALSO FEEL THAT THOSE WHO DIED WERE KNOWN TO ME, MUST HAVE CROSSED THE WAY WHILE I WAS WALKING, MUSH HAVE PASSED A SMILE WHEN I BADLY NEEDED IT.... MUST HAVE..........  

Its just the way I look at it differ.................... I feel that if they are killing people to find place in heaven, lets not make it easy for them.... Let them live..... 

Coz just killing them will never ensure that justice has been done to those who shed tears during the traumatic experience they went through.. 

Now the glorified phrase on all the news channels, 'city back to its spirit... business as usual., people are doing what they do everyday.. Do they have any choice??

Mankind destroying humankind... We need help, don't glorify our helplessness as our spirits.....

We need help!

They need help, more than we do.. By they I mean those terror outfits!' 

Stepping 27!

I have stepped up the ladder, now I am 27!

I am not gonna grow up, I will remain stubborn, and will keep making weird sounds while you talk, I love to make crazy faces etc for all the coming years! 

Thanks for all the wishes, belated advance and on-time.. All of them are cherished and has brought even bigger smile on my face. To make it keyword friendly... I am compelled to write Happy Birthday to me.. Thanks for the Birthday Wishes.. bla bla bla.. credited to the social media workshop held by my organisation, I am all gaa gaa over making me an influential voice as a youth expert, yea I like the word, 'YOUTH EXPERT'! Fashion, style, travel etc all have been explored by my fellow buddies.. So this birthday I take a resolution to be a youth expert blogger! 

Last year I wanted my facebook status to read something like, Shine is in a relationship, I know it will bring sleepless nights to many! May be thats why nothing seemingly conceptualized! I did not find a single guy worth dating, which reaffirmed my faith in the saying that that all nice men are taken or gay.. 

But now its not about the time, its about the right guy! Someone who would just hop on the terrace of my house, manage to cross all the hurdled and locks to reach my room, which is in basement and take me away.. a secret place, a sweet escape, take me away (I love this song)! I wanna be with someone with crazy rockstar attitude, a man not a confused lad!

Since I did not find anyone last year, I plan to take the hunk hunt forward! I am willing to wait till eternity for my man..  People telling me the factors which should be considered while choosing a guy should just take a walk. I know what kinda guy I wanna spend my life with, your versions confuse me!

To end with, note a few things which will for sure bring a smile to you.. if not smile than a loud laugh, nothing less than that!

- Shine stepped out of her house and found a known vendor passing a gesture of appreciation to her, which can easily be translated as eve teasing. It seem that the vendor did not realise that this is the same girl who ends messing up the eve teasers and landing 'em in jail. As soon as the vendor realised that it is Shine, he knew he has been caught and Shine is looking at him with a questioning expression??? After that the vendor never looked up at Shine! 

- Shine was traveling in a crowded metro as a security personnel entered with a sniffing dog. Shine is kinda scared of dogs, and this lad stepped on her and practically sitting on Shine's foot. And a gal standing next to Shine was telling shine not to step on dog's tail. And the metro driver was not driving pretty smooth. The moment doors open Shine jumped out of the metro! Gosh that was relief! ppphewww

PS: Blogger is planning a comeback.. I am sorry my dear blog to not been able to spend time with you!

Author's note: Finding the right pic is a  task errrrr